September 28, 2004

• Another update, right after one. This one however is just gonna
  be some ranting going on. If you don't wanna read some venting
  of frustration then you probably wanna skip this entry altogether.
  Now on with the rant.
  
  Rant
  What options are there when you want to help someone, but the
  message just isn't reaching him/her. You try and try and try in as
  many way to get your message across but the person sees what
  he/she wanna see, hear what he/she wanna hear, and do what
  he/she wanna do. Most people would say forget it you tried and
  the person doesn't want your help. What happens when the person
  say that they wanna change, want you to help... what's the next
  step? Argggggggggggggg  This is sooooooooo frustrating. You
  can't force an ox to drink, but what if the ox is telling you that it's
  dying of thirst? Do you continue to fight this uphill battle or do you
  cut your losses and step away... I don't wanna talk about this
  anymore... on to other frusrations.
  
  At the end of summer I had help a relative of mine to build a computer.
  So I go on my task to build this computer. This was not the smooth
  task as it should have been... Life just doesn't make things easy for me.
  I first got the monitor from Fry's, the box looked like it had been open
  before but the guy said it was new. So when I brought the stuff over
  to the relatives house I setup the comp. When I open the box, things
  where masking taped together and looked like it had been open. I was
  tired and was like forget it. Then I turned on the monitor and found that
  there was a black line of pixels in the middle of the screen with some
  color distortion in the middle. And.... this pissed me off to no end,
  because now I'll have to repack the thing and go back to the store to
  return it and go somewhere else to buy the monitor. OK all that hardware
  stuff done and over with, I installed english window xp along with a bunch of
  softwares usually needed for school and general use. So it was basically
  all setup ready to go. First thing they ask me is where is the chinese.
  Well I was at the request of their elders to put english os on because
  they just came from China and they'll need to learn to use the comps
  at school. So I told them there wasn't any chinese... fast-forward to 2
  weeks after that day. I went back to check up on the comp and it seems
  they got someone to install chinese window xp over everything. BUT
  that person didn't install ANY of the drivers so the comp had no audio,
  no LAN, no 3d video, and none of the softwares that I spend most of my
  time installing. And at that point I just gave up... I installed the audio and
  ethernet card and that will be the end of me helping them with any comp
  stuff. Building a comp is easy and somewhat fast, it's the installing everything
  that takes forever. So much of my time wasted and unappreciated.
  
  Martial Arts supposed to cultivates the body and the mind... However I am
  finding trouble applying my previous teachings. I had always been interested
  in the philosophical side of Martial Arts more so than the physical. Lately...
  I just can't apply any of it anymore... hopefully this will change as time goes
  on. On a lighter note, physically I haven't been sick for awhile. Being healthy
  physically is something new to me these years, ride it for all its worth. 
  
  All these emotions... makes a person very tired. I wish I can turn it
  into something solid and kick its @$$. Can you tell I have some pent
  up steam . You know one of these days, I am gonna go ape$hit again.
  That's right you read correctly AGAIN . I think that's it for me, until I
  have more to rant about in my next update...
  
  

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