Two in a row
Gonna start rambling here, don’t mind anything from here on

Anyways been looking at my random quotes (not that i think anyone ever notice it)
One particular quote is “Needing someone is like needing a parachute. If he/she isn’t
there the first time you need him/her, chances are you won’t be needing that person
again” I’ve always had mixed feeling about this quote, from my personal experience I
understand it. However does that also mean that life is without a second chance? I
guess a world without second chances would be a dark one. But if it really is like a
parachute then a second chance would come too late as we are all at the mercy of time.
I saw some oldies tv stuff from Hong Kong recently, one had a story of how a crack
addict got clean and honestly tried to live a life of hard work. At every turn however,
no one ever gave him a chance, society, work, even his own family. Ultimately it forced
him to live his life as a drug dealer in-order to survive. Can we truly place the blame on
him? or do we place it on society as a scape goat even tho each and everyone of us
are a part of this unfair society? Anyways I think I’ve said enough of this, just something
to think about.

Happy Father’s Day this weekend to all the fathers of the world

More ranting…
Humans have a memory that fades in time so that we can live easier forgetting all our
mistake of the past. For me there are still mistake that i have been unable to forget or at lease
unconsciously don’t want to forget. I have tried to use it as motivation, or as a learning
experience but no matter how I disguise it, basically it’s still there in my mind staring back
at me. Forgetting it seems to belittle the magnitude of the mistake. Maybe one day I can
make up for it…

Small update today: Like my One Piece wanted profile?

I can use the newer xanga editor again all I had to do was turn off privacy settings in
zonealarm  they should just make an option where you can pick which site not to block
http_referrer because turning privacy option off shouldn’t be the solution.

You know I turned off my rss feed option in xanga. Yet people still tries to access it.
People also tries to go to my guestbook but i turn that off long ago.

BBall
Since playing more ball recently, i’ve been able to start getting back into shape. About
a inch from the rim now when i jump. Also because I am jumping higher, the stress on my
elbow is less and my elbow injury doesn’t hurt much anymore. So I gotta keep up

Pets
A couple days ago I saw 2 guppy frys which i removed from the main tank to a container.
Today another of my guppies had frys, six of them but…. As I move the frys to their own
container, one got lost somewhere so my frys container only has seven in it.

I had place ramshorn snails into the small turtle tank in hopes they clean it before the turtle
get to them, then the next day they are all gone. Today I put two more snails into that tank,
five minutes later i hear “crack” and I looked over the turtle had got to one of the two. I guess
snails will never get the chance to clean the tank before they get eaten.

The basking platform for the big turtles needs fixing >.< gotta come up with a better design.
I think I need a dremel, it would make my fixing a bit easier. But I finally found my Creme Brulee
Torch  now i have a mini blowtorch to play around with. The thing has been missing for like 3-4
years? Can’t remember.

Rant
Yes i am gonna rant again. You know i remember reading a quote from someone that human’s
logical evolution has far out evolve our social evolution. Which I feel really do describe our current
state of humanity. Something to think about. I might go into this some other time as the rant could
become super long.

Well the xanga footprint was fun i guess here are my results
for the pass 9 days.

Number of visits from different locations in no order
Illinois 7
Florida 1
Texas 1
Indiana 1
Hong Kong 1
California 25
United Kingdom 1
Japan 1
China 1
Italy 1
Googlebot… 9

and one from an identified user which i’ll keep private.

酒醒只在花前坐，酒醉還來花下眠
半醒半醉日復日，花落花開年復年

Not much of an update. Been living the life of a zombie lately, pass being a panda.
Anyways maybe I’ll do a real update soon. meanwhile, a little something
for all those Simpsons fans out there.

Geek Stuff:
I am liking C# more and more as I learn it. I remember the
nightmare that is C++.  I guess I am just used to Java more
as I have done most of my learning on Java. But I remember
I had to adjust to object oriented programming too when
I first jump from C to Java. Anyways the MCAD certification is
looking more appealing now. Jeremy’s already got 2 of 3 exams
down. Wonder how long it would take me to prepare for it.

Been listening to Microsoft’s webcasts, which some are quite nice.
Sometimes they are a bit too elementary but you still learn a thing
or two that you didn’t know before.

I stumbled on how you can tell your order in signing up for xanga.
As expected I was the 150th person to sign up for xanga. 150th
is a nice rounded number.


Turtle:
Gotta redo the ramp for my turtles…. when I get the time that is.


Now let me try this……

Currently Listening Best of Hero By Kuraki Mai Best of Hero

Currently Listening Outgrow By Boa Everlasting, Dakishimeru

Currently Listening Magnum Collection By Fukuyama Masaharu Heart

Currently Listening Pinkerton By Weezer The Good Life

Currently Watching Ikiru By Kurosawa Akira

Currently Watching Hey! Hey! Hey! Music Champ By FujiTV

Currently Gaming Chibi-Robo By Nintendo Gamecube

Currently Gaming Age of Empires 3 By Microsoft Software

If anyone noticed  I actually put up a “real” picture of myself
as my profile pic although the color’s has been a bit altered.

-Amandoti-

Amarti m’affatica mi svuota dentro
Qualcosa che assomiglia a ridere nel pianto
Amarti m’affatica mi da’ malinconia
Che vuoi farci è la vita
E’ la vita, la mia
Amami ancora fallo dolcemente
Un anno un mese un’ora perdutamente
Amarti mi consola le notti bianche
Qualcosa che riempie vecchie storie fumanti
Amarti mi consola mi da’ allegria
Che vuoi farci è la vita
E’ la vita, la mia
Amami ancora fallo dolcemente
Un anno un mese un’ora perdutamente
Amami ancora fallo dolcemente
Solo per un’ora perdutamente

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Visiting the doctor is fun isn’t it
You don’t feel so well, so you gather up all your strength and get into your
car on a quest to feel better. You then show up at a place where other people who
may feel just as crappy as you congregate. After giving you these forms to fill out so
you wouldn’t notice how long you really had to wait. You then become like a bingo player
waiting for your ever elusive “number” to be called before any others. The moment
finally comes and you grab you stuff and get your chance to enter through
those doors, only to be disappointed by having to wait in another room. A room with
no magazine or the likes to distract yourself. Finally the doctor comes in asking how you are
doing. After some questions and looking around, the doctor narrowed down what exactly
you got. The doctor then take this special notepad and scribble down the name of
these magic pills that you have to take. Of course on your way out it is necessary to empty
out your wallet to the person at the desk because it isn’t cheap to stay healthy.
Your journey however isn’t over, now you have to dirive yourself to get those magic pills.
Again you have to wait depending on how many other sick people got there before you.
Finally you get those magic pills, and of course this time you have to use these magnetic plastic
cards to pay for it because you already emptied your wallet. You get home and your journey
is over. You take one or two of those pills in hopes that you can escape this crappy feeling
which got worst because you’ve been up the last couple hours going to all these places.

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After 10 days of first taking regular antibiotics then switching to a much stronger one ($4 per pill),
2 doctor visits, countless number of M&M looking advils, and $400 less inside my wallet later
I think I am finally over the hump, or at lease at the top of it.

Being sick is just no fun at all