It’s been awhile since I updated. got back home not that long ago. My lack of update is
from the the fact that it’s hard to come up with deep thoughts that I could put on xanga every
time. Anyways what is this world coming to. People are fighting with each other again in a few
places in this world. Why is it always me verus you, us against them? Everybody loses in warfare,
hopefully I won’t catch much flame for this post but I truly wish that everyone can take a deep
breath and chill out for just a moment. There are other issues that also greatly affects us. Deforestation
(if I spelled it right), global warming, even Tsunami warning system for all coastal areas in this world.
Maybe it would be nice for humanity if some hostile alien life form shows up on earth, then all of
humanity might actually band together against a common “foreign” cause. Or…. humanity can learn
to coexist in peace. (which ever comes first)
Life is really like a box of chocolates, you never know what you’re gonna get, unless you have esp….
but that’s a topic for another day. Life makes so many people suffer, I feel the pains of those around
me also…. as if I don’t have enough pain of my own. I wish I can use a “chi bay” heart to heal everything.
for everyone around, but I guess I don’t have what it takes yet.
Hanging out with my friend back at purdue was really nice, a change of settings, to see things that I saw
years ago, to feel things that I felt from years ago was important and refreshing to me. As much as things
might seems to change, it still carries the same feeling. Knowing my bro having my back when I need it
did wonders for me too. Even tho we spend the hours “blowing water” about random things, It seems
just like back in the day. I do miss a lot of people, but now they are all over the globe. I guess I should be
greatful that in this day and age communicating with others aren’t a differcult task anymore. It may sound
cheesy but I miss almost everyone I have ever met. Keyword of course is “almost”…. I guess my “chi bay”
heart isnt’ as merciful as I think it is lol, some people still rub me the wrong way. However I do wish everyone
peace in this world even those who rubbed me the wrong way in the past. All of a sudden, eason’s song
“Shall We Talk” is bouncing around in my head. Maybe I’m in emo mode or something ><
You know what… I think I already have the subject of my next post lol. The continuation of my thoughts
on human learning and experience.
Month: July 2006
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OK well someone said that I haven’t update in awhile which is true, it’s been like a week.
First off something heavy just fell on my ankle bone so I am in pain as I am typing this.
Second, I just came back from Zea lounge so I am a bit buzzed, just a bit. Let’s see what
should I write…
The topic of a section of poem that I had previously posted was in question so I guess I’ll
post the whole thing and ask what you guys can interpret from it.
桃花塢裏桃花庵，桃花庵裏桃花仙。桃花仙人種桃樹，又摘桃花換酒錢。
酒醒只在花前坐，酒醉還來花下眠。半醒半醉日復日，花落花開年復年。
但願老死花酒間，不願鞠躬車馬前。車塵馬足貴者趣，酒盞花枝貧者緣。
若將富貴比貧賤，一在平地一在天。若將貧賤比車馬，他得驅馳我得閑。
別人笑我忒瘋癲，我笑他人看不穿。不見五陵豪傑墓，無花無酒鋤作田。
Anyways
on to the next subject.
The topic of lies has come out lately…. Lying isn’t something that is easily done, you tell one lie
and then more lies are used to cover the previous one and pretty soon you’ve dug yourself a hole.
There are of course people who can lie without any problems, they have lied all their lives and
upkeeping a lie doesn’t pose any differculities for these people. Sometime it is these people that
you have to watch out for in life. There is of course the other side of this, those who have been
lied to, and they dont knows the person was lying to them and yet it happen time and time again.
There isn’t anything worst than knowing someone is lying to you and you can see through it. Yet you
have to act as if you don’t know it. I have heard that when a kid tells their first white lie, the kid no longer
is a kid and has become an adult because his/her world no longer revolves around himself/herself. I do see
the logic behind it but I still say that being honest is sometimes the best. Maybe the society we live
in does not want us to tell the truth, that the more someone knows about our inner-self, the more
disadvantage we are at. That speaks worst about our own society than it does ourself. Of course
last but not lease there are times when we lie to ourselves, to make ourself feel better than our
own reality. Can we truely say that there are safe lies? Anyways just something to think about.
OK i’m tired so going to sleep now, goodnight everyone and hope you’ll get a better sleep than I
do.
